Linking Shades Part Three

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“And if I’m dead to you, why are you at the wake?”

At the beginning I was so happy that we both entered together, but when his girl showed up, I felt so upset. They both were talking and laughing about something they did last night; at a party or a family gathering, or something like that. While the lecture was going on, he was explaining the stuff to his girl.

She seemed so confused, like me. I liked how he was caring and making sure of her understanding every word in the lecture. He seemed like a smart guy, somehow like me maybe. Anyway, I understood the material that day, but I won’t lie, I listened to what he was explaining.

He was unbelievably kind to her, explaining the old material that we both didn’t understand last week and kept asking the professor about. On Thursday, they both entered together, I was behind them. She ran quickly and sat on the chair that was on the left side of my chair and put her bag on my chair. He smiled and sat on his usual chair that was on my right side.

I felt kinda weird and didn’t know how to react. Like, should I move her bag and sit on my chair between both of them? Or try to find somewhere else to sit? I paused for a second, then acted in an apathetic way, and moved her bag and sat in the middle between both of them.

Then he laid back and looked at her from behind and she did the same movement too, and they both started smiling at each other. I was pretty sure that he explained this bag thing between me and him as a joke to her, and they both decided to make fun of it. But, he was the one who moved my bag first, not me! I tried my best to keep focusing on the lecture and not minding them both.

On Friday, I decided to change my seat and stay away from both of them, because this is toxic and will affect my grades. So, I sat in the middle row. He entered the lecture hall a few seconds after me. He looked at my usual seat and found it empty. He got confused, because he saw me entering the lecture hall already.

He looked back, up to the rows searching for me, then his eyes looked into my eyes and found me sitting between people in the middle row. I turned my eyes immediately, pretended that I was looking at the board or whatever. He stared at me for a while. I totally ignored him. He went out of the lecture hall.

I didn’t care, and never moved my head. Few seconds later, his girl came and sat on her chair. The lecture started but he didn’t come. After nine minutes, I found the guy who was sitting on my left side, standing up and moving to somewhere else. Then the handsome guy came and sat next to me with his beautiful heavy perfume. I knew it was him, his perfume was so special.

I didn’t look at him at all, but I didn’t know how to describe my feelings at that moment. I was kind of happy, scared, maybe sad, but excited. I felt cold and warm, at the same time. I don’t know, but the vibe of this feeling was similar to the wake! Then I asked myself, “Why did he sit next to me and leave his girl sitting down there alone in the first row?”